After almost seven months away, I’m finally back – online, that is.
Toronto happened. And I love that Toronto happened. Toronto dazzled me with its motivation and its inspiration and its giving me everything I went there to get, like the tools to keep up with social media, finding my niche, meeting fantastic people, and never running out of content.
The problem was that I expected to use my new found inspiration and knowledge and advice and tools to blog passionately – my posts focused, niched, poised and clever, written with a voice that’s really me, causing my brand to rise to fame, my Facebook page Liked and my tweets RT’ed to new heights of popularity.
What actually happened was that I put so much pressure on myself that I stopped enjoying myself. I over-analyzed every sentence I typed to the point that I couldn’t write anything. I would search the interwebs endlessly for things to “share” so I would seem useful to an audience I admired instead of sharing things that I found interesting and letting my own niche audience slowly build.
I had gone about it the wrong way.
So what did I do? I panicked and went into avoidance mode. I couldn’t look at my blog because it actually physically hurt to look at it. After all the work I put in to it, I felt awful, and so ashamed just leaving it to hang on its own like a neglected puppy.
I needed to focus on ‘life’ for a while. I stopped panicking about not being a full time successful blogger and got a temp job like I had planned to as backup. Life became a bit more routine and I could focus on what I actually enjoyed: writing.
Where to go from here?
Blogging was supposed to be a platform for my creativity, and I got distracted somewhere along the way. So I’m back. My two goals?
- Get back to basics and concentrate on my writing, not my blogging. And focus on what’s going on in my world – upcoming adventures (T-8 months!), projects I’m working on (NaNoWriMo and then some) and other creative things of note (peut être en français).
- I’ve said this before, and it’s worth to say it again: Because of the chasm between ‘potential’ and ‘ability’ that all creatives must bridge, I’ve been convinced to churn out posts like all hell’s breaking loose. Instead of working on each one for hours on end to try to make it perfect, I’m going to go through a hectic, probably bumpy, ride of pumping out volumes of prose because besides time, it’s the only way to catch up and close that gap. You’ve been warned.
Barring any emergencies, that should help avoid any more of this: